i realize it has been almost 2 years, maybe even longer than I have really hung out with my old friends. I don't really think any of us are friends anymore, I don't even know them anymore anyway, they don't know me. not like it matters that much anyway I suppose.

I really regret sitting here and being angry. I have no reason to be angry. I really don't care anymore and its just life. I should delete all of these and start over.

What a fucking crazy night. I had my first seizure ever while in class. I don't know what it was. But I had a really bad case of deja vu right before I had a seizure. they that is a reason that can cause seizure. I am grateful to be alright, but I am still scared because Idont know what is wrong and what will happen.

I don't snap on like you want me to
because it still hurts my eyes when they turn red
I sit down, rode all the way next to my heart
it beats to the time too close to your truth

Chorus:
Yeah the tarot broke, open the glasshouse
so this might just be the saddest day I've ever known
Yeah the tarot broke, open the glasshouse
and this might just be the saddest day I've ever known

My arms are tied behind disease
I'll probably be gone the next time too
in a corner in a shadow I sit self-obsessesed
too busy, too important to say goodbye

Chorus

This regret, it kills you'll never forget
take the time this time to say your goodbyes

writing something new. i do not know why

I am never surprised at anything you say anymore. Go ahead and talk about how much you hate me.. How much I never meant anything to you at all