Well. It is almost crazy how much everything seems so infinite or possible being in a city. All the possibilities are endless. I guess with so many people, places, things, etc. I know that I really like Louisville, it reminds me of Minneapolis in a way. It isn't as big, but it's kinda got the same feel to it. I like the culture and stuff, its not like you would think if you are a narrow minded asshole or something. The only thing good about that movie Elizabethtown was the few things it shown. I guess for me I like seeing all these people and none of them are going to the same place. Everywhere has somewhere to go, for the most part. We all seem to be going in the other direction. I seen this bum today and he smelled like literal shit and it was sad, he was fighting with nothing. He was talking to something that wasn't there getting really mad. I think about how all those people are not diagnosed properly with their mental defects and that is why they end up becoming what they are. I feel sorry for a lot of them. Some of them can control it. I just like that I have so many chances and I should take them. I am feeling better, I am not eating as much as I was back in the winter. I probably lost 30 or 40 pounds since I left minneapolis. I am dating and meeting new people, some bad ones, but its getting better. I like who I am sometimes. I like the way I think. I like that I can be optimistic, and pessimistic when necessary. I like that I know I have so many great things to say, things to do.. I don't want to be limited because I am waiting on someone else to do decide or whatever. I like the fact that I am not going for the first thing that comes. I know some people are just sad and pathetic and they will take the first thing that comes.

Sorry If I wasn't honest.. Its just me I was afraid I guess? Well I moved into a really nice house in the suburbs from a person I met on roommates.com here.

You are so pathetic.

Yesterday I honestly laughed at how unbelievable you really are. I am so glad that I am not that guy that your banging these days. I mean I tried to be nice and just ask for my stuff back and you had to be a big dumb retard. It was fucking hilarious really. I mean their was no need to tell me you hate me.. What is your reason for hating me really? You don't have a reason, other than I took our breakup hard at first. That is no goddamn reason to hate someone. You say your this christian, but your nothing but a fucking hypocrite. Wishing that I would die and shit. Wanting to stab me. You hate someone that did anything and everything for you too. You are fucking pathetic.. You had to tell me over and over how happy you are. YOu may be.. I dont care though if you are regardless. Really I hope your fucking miserable because your a fucking bitch. I wanted to be as nice as possible about it. despite your hatred for me.. It will never take away the fact of all the dirty things we did together. A notch on my bedpost is how you shall exsist. That is all you will ever mean to anyone. If you really threw my stuff away, it is going to be something that your gonna regret. I hope you still read this... I called Park Trails and I am allowed to go get my stuff. So either you mail me my shit or I am going to come up there and you better not fucking start any shit you immature kid. I am going to get back every fucking thing I bought, even if I don't need it. That 100 dollar cord for your computer, that dvd player, every single shitty dvd you ever had me get, and anything and everything else. If I could figure out some kind of way to take that fucking tattoo off of you I would. You know if you would have just been nice about me asking for MY fucking stuff back I wouldn't have been a dick. I just wanted my cds and whatever else. You know that I took care of you for the whole time we were together. I paid for so much shit, I am entitled to some of that fucking stuff. I think if you really threw away my stuff, then that shows how really truly pathetic you are. You can say you hate me, but you will always live with me your in heart, in your head, your arm, in many many many other ways. I will too unfortunately, because I see so many things and it will remind me of you and it will just ruin my day. Its unfortunate your so stupid and you couldnt be mature about one thing. You should stop playing this cool bitch act and be that person you ACTed like at first. You know that I did alot for you and I would never ever do the fucked up shitty stupid things you have done.

so

Been a bit since I have wrote anything. Well classes has started for me at Sullivan University, so far I am doing alright. I would be doing alot better without all the stress of family but it happens. I have went on a strict crash diet and I have probably lost 15 pounds so far. I am just eating fruit and that is it. I got complimented the other day of how much better I look and that made me feel good. As far as the whole dating situation goes for me I am just not finding anyone that I really want to be with. I do however like this girl Katie and I think that it has real potential because she hasn't been like every other girl so far. I don't really know, just want someone that is right for me. I guess? I know that for me I am just tired of finding girls that are easy. I don't necessarily mean easy as in getting into their pants easy but just surrendering themselves for the sake of being with someone. Some people are just so desperate to be with someone that will take the first thing they see or can get. Maybe I have been guilty of before, well I am sure I have been. I know that everyone gets lonely, I get lonely. I don't really know what else to say, so i will end now..