First day of my life?

I started Sullivan University today.. I am so freaking scared right now.. New city, new school, new everything. I am not doing very well with money either, I am not getting any help either. My tax return hasn't came yet and I don't know where I am gonna live. I am actually homeless at the time and what little money I do have is going towards a hotel room. But I am trying to stay positive and excited and ready. I have been in worse situations and I got through it somehow.. I know that I can't back out now I have already gotten my books and started class. So Rock n Roll. Wish me the best... I think that everything will be fine just got to tough it out.

It has been nice to say the least being in Louisville this week. I have gotten the V.I.P. treatment because Sullivan is so badass. I guess because my test scores were so high I have gotten two nights free at the holiday inn, all expenses paid for, food, cab rides, etc for free. It is nice to know that the staff at Sullivan didn't look at me like I was just another Social Security Number either. I mean its nice to know that nice people still exsist, they are just extremely hard to find. Laurie has been a great help. She has done so much for me. Thanks..

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I start Sullivan University on March 30th in Louisville KY. I am going for Culinary arts, something that I hvae wanted to do for a very long time. I am very proud and glad that I finally did something that I wanted to and I think that I will do and love it very much. I have my own apartment too and I move in on the third week of April. It is a good thing that it is my own apartment so I don't have to worry about being kicked out of my own apartment. But yeah man it feels great being back in the city and going back to schoool especially something like I am doing. I think I am going to do a good job and I am happy. I met someone great too up here, Raquelle. She is a sweet girl and I am surprisingly happy and glad that things are going good. I am just glad to have finally gotten out of that whole "lost" phase. After I moved back in January, I have seemed so lost.. But I am glad to be out of that little ass town and be back in the city and going to college and meeting people worth actually meeting.. So far so good, no assholes.

I met a girl.. I am so glad to be out of Russell Springs. I think I am going to like being in Louisville and especially for Culinary Arts. Oh yeah, everyone has gone, home to oblivion. Watched a dying day blushing in the sky, everyone is uptight. so come on night. Still got 3 years and 10 months left of our lord and savior in office. bored at the moment

see you later

There Will Be Blood, I finally got it because Paul Thomas Anderson Wrote and Directed it. For those of you who don't know who he is he did Magnolia, Boogie Nights, Punch Drunk Love, and more. There will be blood is the best movie I have seen in years.. I like how he does the music in his movies, just really eerie I guess. But I like the whole thing with church and God in it. It is hard to believe Daniel-Day Lewis hasn't been in more movies. I bought Levity, which I seen that a few times before but its good Billy Bob Thorton, and Happy Endings its pretty good. I guess its not for everyone. But I leave sunday for Louisville, I am going to College for Culinary Arts at Sullivan University. I think that is what I need to do with my life and I finally did it. So I am excited.

I like your pretty eyes better blackened and my fist all fucking red

I had alot to say at first but I done forgot it, oh well. I was just thinking about how I think I am an idiot for telling you that I missed you, I know it made you feel better about yourself. I think about how it would be nice to hear you say that but of course you won't. You move on really quick and talk about how you never been in love anyway and this new guy I forget it his name but he made you laugh so much. I am happy for you. I know that for me all these whores I have been with the last few months make me feel awful about myself. I am too scared to trust anyone now because of you and I have added too many notches on my bedpost.. I am ashamed really, I want a good girl, not a fucking whore. I just think about how my actions have been lately, so i could only imagine what you've been doing. I am sure its probably much worse. I don't care though that isn't really any of my concern now. I know that I hate the fact that I am so scared of commiting now. The other day too when I said I missed you I do mean that, but that doesn't mean I want to get back with you because I don't. I know it doesn't make any difference to you just telling you that. Anyway, since I did it I am in a funking fucking mood. On a high note even though I didnt get to file all my taxes from all my jobs because I didn't get them all and even though I got fucked over on my paying of rent I still am getting back almost a Grand so thats sweet. I am taking that with the money I have saved up now and I will be leaving soon enough. I was gonna leave for Washington but I backed out because I just couldn't really see myself as a lumberjack.haha but im thinking certainly somewhere north or midwest. I would really like to live in oregon or washington seriously but probably be weird not knowing anyone. Maybe I'll move to Omaha? I know what the next two tattoos is I will be getting and where. I am gonna get a phonograph for my best friend EJ who is dead, I actually went to his grave for the first time in almost a couple of years. I cried like a baby, hell I miss him and i dont care if that sounds gay.. to think about what we would be doing right now. I am sure be going to school for music and I would have someone I could trust and not worry about fucking me over. Really a good friend. The second tattoo im gonna get is the typewriter on Mineral EndSerenading cd.. I want to get both of them on each arm up top where the muscle is on the inner part. But yeah I hate it here, fucking dump. But I guess I am gonna go to Culinary school in Louisville if nothing else next semester. I would rather live in Louisville than here. Louisville is the 16th biggest City in The U.S. so its not bad. I actually really like Louisville.. but anyway im done now.

My hair is growing back and dyed my hair black again