hey! I haven't written in a while

well it appears as if I haven't wrote in a while. So i thought I would. I am not gonna get to home for christmas now. Abby lost her job so now I am the only one with a job making any money at all, so in order to have enough money to live, and pay rent I am gonna not go home. It sucks to be quite honest, my friends and family I miss alot I was looking forward to seeing them. Here it isn't very often I see anyone I know or who really is all t hat interested that I am even around. I kknow that my friends and my family were telling me how excited they were that I was gonna be comng home. I haven't seen them in ten months. It is sometimes I forget that I even have people that care about me. I am not being negative I am just sayng that to have people really truly know you and enjoy your company is different. I just would like to see my friends hang out and get drunk and listen to music and just laugh. I would like to see my family and just do whatever. Iwould like to see my nephew elijah cause he is almost 3 now. I don't want to go home for good, or otherwise I would have never left there. But damn it would be nice to be able to see everyone. My family has me gifts for xmas too. that was nice i thought because iwas coming in. I just really don't know how things will be financially with me just making money. I know that if I go that will be a whole week without me making any money at all and rent is due while we are gone. so i guess i will just stay.. so me and abby will have a place to live. i hate growing up. I also find out tomorrow or the next if i will be transferred to a new radioshack getting more hours fulltime. so hopefully I get it, that would be really helpful. Oh yeah, I had to buy a new battery today for the car because I jumped the last one and it was fucked. so it just seems for goddamn sure that when it rains it pours. It is christmas time and etc etc etc. so much for thinking that things were gonna be ok.