well lets see I am sorry for ever arguing. I am sorry for not being honest with you. I am sorry that I never tried to make you oopen up more.. I am really sorry for ruining your life. I love you, I really thought that I would get to marry you one day. I was serious about everything. The thought of being with you forever and always sounds perfect. I know when we first met I was supposed to be with you for the rest of my life. I love your wittiness, creativity, beauty, and so much more. I like how you can hold me and comfort me when I am having a bad day. I loved the fact that I knew I would always have you to rely on and I took you for granted. I should have done alot of things different. I shouldn't have been so hard and negative. I should have realized that you werent being the way you wanted to be. I know you think that I have nothihng to say, but I will always have plenty of things to say to you about how much I love you. I love your voice. I love the way you sing, it puts me at ease thinking aobut. I will always remember the first time you ever sang to me and I was in complete aww of your beauty. You amaze me, you have so many things to do and you are more and more of an inspiration. I wish that I could go back and fix things. I wish that I could just take b ack the way I acted at first. The way I was so scared. I didn't know what else to do, perhaps. Maybe, I was worried about being myself. I don't know like I wouldn't be very interesting I gueses that with all the things that Iyou had done and I guess that maybe I wanted to be all that and more. You know I would really have liked to have traveled like we had planned. I think that would be beautiful. just you and me together hand and hand. I can't get over all these things I did wrong. I know now I don't have a chance to change it. You really made me want to be a better person. You inspired me to do better and to care about someone other than myself. I think of you and I smile. Well at this point I am crying because I miss you and love you so much. I just wish that this wouldn'tb e the end.. I wish... Does it really have to be? I know that I can and will make you very happy. but I guess you will never know. I will always love you. Bye